Selamat Hari Raya...

My husband already leaving for solat Hari Raya at darul makmur and the kids was already up at 7am....gave them their milk and here i am blogging this....

I've been slacking on my post because Ramadhan was a very busy month for me and i do feel a pinch of sadness that Ramadhan already left us and semoga kita berjumpa lagi bulan ramadhan di tahun depan insyaallah....but SYAWAL is here, people!!

Yesterday i can't help wondering what hari raya's celebration will be like if my father was still around when i hear takbir sedang bergema....i know i have to ikhlas dgn permegiannya and tuhan lebih menyayanginya but i do still wonder.....

So later at 8.30am , i will give the kids a bath and heat up yesterday's food....because i'm sure dh will be famished by the time he reached home.....yesterday i cooked Lodeh, serundeng, bargedil, ayam goreng and sambal telur and udang.....hhmmmm yum yum .....dh ate that for dinner and supper....

So i would to take this opportunity to memohon maaf jika ada salah dan silap atau kata-kata yg pernah menyinggung hati mana-mana pihak and mari kita menyambut Hari raya ini penuh dgn keriangan.....

And my kids can't wait to wear their new Hari raya clothes.....which been hanging since yesterday.....

Pics of Brownie...plus Bad and good news.

This is my first time decorating my brownie.....usually it was plain-looking till i put a touch of pink to it..
I hope to make kek kukus which is one of my favourites for the upcoming Hari Raya (seems like every type of cake is my favourite...lol).

Today i've heard a bad news and a good news from my mother today....I was told that ashik, my brother had a mishap at work and suffered bone fracture on his hands. (don't know whether i got the fact right). He was always prone to accident because i recalled how he got injured in a motorbike accident. Apie sms my hubby asking me not to worry because it seems like it was not so serious.Phheeww!!

I don't know why that recently i've been having a lot of dugaan (obstacle) in this holy month and even the people around me also facing the same thing...hhhmmmm. I just hope that something good will come out of all these....

The good news that i've heard from my mum is that Kak Ina is pregnant right now...i really wish that this time, the pregnancy will be smooth sailing...insyaallah..
I know how much she really desire for a child and i was glad that Allah has blessed her with this pregnancy. Thank you allah...Alhamdullilah...

1 week school holidays is over

At this time,, where Hari Raya is coming nearer....i really need my kids to be in school for 2 hours so that
i can have free time to do marketing or spring cleaning my home.
Not that i don't love them but sometimes they can make me go crazy..like really crazy...lol.

Before this, i don't have any Hari Raya mood but last night, when i watched tv programmes that will be aired for Hari Raya, i can feel that my spirit was lifted a little..just by a tad.
I just wished that the weather on Hari Raya will be nice and breezy because of the fact that Aliah and i will be wearing baju kebaya songket.

I've thought of henna-painting on my hands but i don't feel like doing so now.....
Other than the kids, i can't find any other reason to be so excited for Hari Raya....Oh my...

Biskut Dahlia

Last Monday, i started making kuih raya and my first one was Biskut Dahlia.

This is one of my hubby's favourites according to my mother-in-law. And my mother-in-law has been bugging me to make this for my hubby every year....(tapi tak kasi resepi pun...hehehe)

So i make this based on Asmah Laili's recipe because i truly have faith in her recipe...

And this does not dissapoint me at all.

It got the same taste as my mother-in-law's ones. Yipeee!! A Success!!

And so today i thought of making my kuih suji which i tried the first time last year and it had received compliments last year...(blushing...malu tapi suka)but still, i want to improvise the recipe because i find it a little too sweet for my liking.

Usually i like to make different kuih every year except for kuih tart and chocolate chip cookies..which a must haves for Hari Raya.

Looks like today, i will spending most of my time in the kitchen......

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My kitchen attacked me today.

Today i asked Dh whether he wanted Mee Siam or Mee Goreng and i was hoping that he would go for Mee siam actually but he wanted Mee goreng.....Duh...I actually knew that he was going to picked that.

So at 5pm like that, i started blending the ingredients and marinate my chicken wings. So usually i let my blender does the work by itself once i pressed the button. And when i did that..i was reaching for refrigerator after i pressed the blender button and suddenly the blender was vibrating and moving to the front a little from my kitchen top and about to fell off to the floor.

But i managed "save" the blender from falling off but my chilli blended stuff was splattered all over the place.....UUrrggghhhh!! Suddenly i can feel that my vein in my brain was about to pop out .....and that was called THROBBING HEADACHE!!

I have to clean it off and i was running out of time to prepare our Break Fast Meal.
So Dh and i combined forces to clean our cabinets and it took a while to really clean it off....

After prepared the new blended chili stuff and i saute (tumis) till cili garing and the next step was to crack 2 eggs into the mixture...but the shells was accidentally dived into my tumisan....(sorry for the mixed languange) and i was UURRGGHH again...why why why?

So i carefully took them out with my small tongs...
So while i was cooking my mee goreng, i began frying my chicken wings...and after 3 mins, while i was about to turn the chicken to the other side...the hot oil mercik (splattered? spraying?) to one of my cheeks, my chin and to my elbow.
AARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

And i also broke my KFC big fat cup that i kept my measuring spoons in it. Haiz....

It's like the kitchen was attacking me non-stop......
So i finally gave up and told Dh to take over and he willingly agreed to do so because he also find it weird and told me that maybe today is just not my day....

So i just instructed him what to add to my mee goreng and it turned out not bad at all....
And i also cancelled my plan to bake muffin after what had happened all day long in my kitchen...I don't want any misfortune to happen while i'm baking.....hahaha
Even my kitchen has a bad day....

So which one?

I already crossed the appointed days on my calendar to make my kuihs and i'm feeling excited about it already...while others might find making kuihs can be a hassle....i actually love making them...
One of the reasons is that i can never get over how aromatic the smell of newly fresh baked cookies all over my kitchen....mmmnnn....so heavenly..(getting high already ...lol).

But one weird thing about me is that i dont like to make a tons of one kind of kuih...meaning that i can't never make cookies from 2kg of flour because it means that i have to spend all my time making them and i can easily get bored....just one of my thing..

One of my friends thinks that my talent (hehe...laugh at the sound of it) was a waste that i don't know how to make money out of it.....He keeps asking me to make sofa covers, his bed kelambu the last minute but i was a little occupied this month...he need to know that i will be busy in every bulan Ramadhan....I dont like to talk about my ibadah if not being asked but i always like to occupy myself beribadah like reading Al-Quran or zikir in this holy month..
So i told his wife that if they need my services...they need to give me notice at least one month before Ramadhan....

Hhmmm....yeah maybe one day i will start a small business at home...i just don't know how to begin for a starter and i always doubt myself whether i will be good enough....

And i am fickle minded about what i want to expertise at....maybe tailor for baju kurung, sewing simple curtains, sofa covers, making cakes or kuih or cookies and now i feel like taking course on making cupcakes and also taking immediate class on dressmaking....see...what i told u...i'm fickle-minded because i know that i will get bored easily doing one stuff only...
My hubby finds that i am multi-talented (hehe..find that word ticklish) but it's sometimes poses a problem for me....

Sometimes it's good to do just one thing and be good at it..

The Unwanted

I'm feeling like crap now....my hubby tried to console me but it was no use...
And when everytime i feel like crap...i would cut myself out from the rest of the world and get sucked in where nobody can ever find me....as i was unwanted from the beginning....
Ya Allah....kuatkan semangatku...berilah aku pertunjuk and berilah aku kesudahan yg baik.

Gathering

Most likely i'll have a family gathering for break fast this coming Sunday...
and most likely i'll prepare Ayam Butter Masala, Nasi Tomato, Chap chye and something for dessert, i guess.

My friends wanted badly to break fast at my place but i've got no time to do it...so sorry guys...maybe not this year...The reason why is that i just finished sewing my sofa covers which took forever to finish it....i also just got better from my flu and i have not done any spring cleaning yet except for my windows..i feel like i'm swimming in unfinished and never ending to-do-list and so this year beriftar at my place was strictly for my family members only....

It's been ages for me that i haven't updated this blog because blogger keep having problems which irritates me.

Anyways..........
Teacher's Day is coming and i don't have a grain of idea what to get for Aniq n Aliah's teachers.

My birthday

Last Saturday, my mum called me at 1pm plus and asked what time i would be coming..she wanted me to buy her serai and lengkuas that she forgot to purchase. But i told her that i can't be there that early...maybe about 5.30pm to 6pm..and I'll be making epok-epok to be brought there and she said OK....

So at 2.30pm, i was out with my family to go to Sembawang Shopping centre to buy my stuff and a off-white poccilini handbag that i've been meaning to get so hubby told me that he would pay for all my shopping purchases as my birthday gift. Meaning...i just point...and he would pay...lol
So i bought a handbag, eyelash curler, a mascara and an eyeliner...that's all...It should be less than a hundred dollars...and we bought a gorgeous brooch for my mother's birthday that will be on coming Monday.

Reached my mum's place at 6pm like that and i saw rzyan and eya in the kitchen helping mum out. Even Cik waidah and her family came as well so it was kind of merry occasion. Mum cooked a lot of stuffs like lontong, sambal goreng, bargedil, popiah accompanied with lots of fruits.

After breaking fast and solat maghrib, i sat in the kitchen with my mum and others and we were talking and making jokes and it was hilarious when there was this kumbang flew in and most of them including my brother, Kandar were scared and screaming, running out of the kitchen....lol....
I'm not scared of kumbang but only to slimy cicak and mighty flying coakroach...eeewwww..

Suddenly my mum called me to sit outside...so i watched television then.
Then out of sudden, the lights were off and i saw my hubby carried a birthday cake and all of them were singing birthday song and looking at me...aiyoh...
me so malu u know..

It was a celebration for the three of us ...me, shahlan and my mum.....

It was rzyan and ashik who bought the cake and arranged all this so once again i like to thank them from the bottom of my heart who gave the three of us a wonderful surprise....

Fruits hats

Mr mix fruits

Ms watermelon fruit juice or ms gloomy?

Today at school, they made hats and pasted picture of fruits on it. Took a picture each of them just for memory sake.

Aniq knows how to write his name already without me telling him the alhabets.
Aliah can do it too except i need to tell her the alphabets but i'm sure she eventually get there...Ibu believe in you, ok sweetie.

Let's go riding...

This is my favourite cake from Secret Recipe which is Chocolate Indulgence...

Ice mocha

After the Family Day Event, we went to IMM because i have never been there....

It was such a big place so we did not covered all area..but i bought dark purple curtain from Giant and it was quite cheap...i like cheap stuff...And it was meant for Hari Raya this year....

the design was quite plain ..nothing extraordiany but it's ok.

I spotted there was pony rides for $2 only so i decided to spoilt my kids and had fun...

I don't why but everytime i saw fun stuffs...i would let the kids to go for it unless it was expensive then of course i would have to reconsider...i wouldn't want to spoilt the kids in that way either ...or else i'll get into deep trouble...which serve me right ok ok i have to shut up now.....lol

We had our dinner at Burger King and we continued to browse around the mall till i found myself in desperate need for caffeine.....my throat was like screaming for one....and the best part was i couldn't find any Coffee bean or Starbucks (aiseyman...nak kopi mahal pulak...ngada-ngada punya tekak).

So we passed by Secret Recipe and my hubby was cracking a smile and said that why don;t we have a cake and a coffee to unwind..

I was hesitated because it's going to be costy if i just want a coffee....But i budge at the thought of eating cake( confessions of a cake junkie)....hhmmmm...and i was torned between cheesecake and chocolate cake so i asked Dh to get chocolate cake and he agreed..hehe

So we ordered Blueberry cheesecake, Chocolate Indulgence and an Ice Mocha and total cost was around $18.00....wOopppsssyyy

SMRT Family Day

It was SMRT Family Day on last Sunday. We arrived at about 1.00pm like that and it was considered late. But it's ok because it ended at 5pm so we went around for 4 hours. The guys in the picture are my hubby's colleagues...they arrived way early than us.

Taking picture at a helicopter.

Snapped a picture with skinny and unmuscular spiderman and Darth Vader. Good side Vs Evil side.

She is my hubby's colleague's fiancee. We met on last year Hari Raya and we clicked instantly....

She is such a sweet girl.

Aniq tgh koner baring tu....jangan main main....


Aliah at first had difficulty controlling her bike but one minute later, she got the hang of it.

We queued for such a long time to get her hand painted when a guy came up and said that the stall will be closed just like that...no warning, no allowance ...Nothing!!

So we begged the girl to paint Aliah's hand since she was next in line and Aliah been pestering me to get her hand painted since the time we stepped in. And luckily the girl agreed and we told her to paint Aliah a butterfly...It was a simple design...which was sufficient to get Aliah happy.

Even though Aniq is not that excited like Aliah about getting his hand painted...i just a brush which was lying on the table and scraped yellow colour that had been dried up and painted Aniq a star....I always tried my best to be fair to them as possible.

Overall the family was moderately ok....but at least the weather was nice that day...itwas not that hot and it was a little breezy.

Pastamania

This one was taken sometime ago at Northpoint, and it was newly opened that time.....the interior design is interesting compared to other outlets and i like it....

My hubby was complaining that my most of my photos were not candidly taken and so i let him took this candid moment on my free will ....haiz...nak posing vogoe pun tak boleh....nasib nasib..

I forgot the name of this dish....This is what happenned when i uploaded pictures that were taken some time ago...i tend to forget all the details....haiz

Yup...forgotten the name of these drinks...

Pls look at Aliah....confirm sah dah lapar....

This is the kids meal set which came with garlic breads and a drink. I chose carbonara for them and they liked it...except that the gravy is a little watery compared to the cabonara from the main menu like the one below.


This was my meal(cabonara) and it was satisfying good for me. The sauce was creamy and thick.

I needed a dessert that time for my sweet tooth so i picked this and the taste was quite plain...nothing special about it...it was more like a mousse....and once again, i've forgotten the name of this dessert.

While waiting, Dh called out to me and asked me to take his picture and so i did it....and i was telling myself....hhmmm...dia pose boleh eh.....

And so were the kids....pose manja lagi....

New shoes for my darlings

Bought them new shoes....both from Reebok, for their sizes...not much choice to pick from.

Now they always want to wear these sport shoes everytime we went out even though they have other shoes in the cabinet....

For hari raya....i hope to buy capal for Aniq to go along with his orange baju kurung and i already spotted a shoe ...a lady type one of course for Aliah at Kiddy palace ...it was so pretty....

For me, my hubby already bought me a white high heel shoe with gold metal thingy on it from Charles keith which was on sale that time...he paid about $36++ (original price was $49), i think and it was a good deal.

So have you bought new shoes for the upcoming Hari Raya ??

Best Friend

A best friend to me is someone who wishes good things for you, who gives you motivation or encouragement when you feel you can't and who gives you the ugly truth even when you don't want to hear it.
Sound simple?
Then why didn't i have one?
People always call me as their best friend easily but when i needed them ...they seem to be nowhere....weird or self-centred?

I remembered how I was feeling down when i was not yet blessed with child yet somebody whom i called my friend kicked me when i'm down.
While she was happily pregnant, she said to me that if one day i got pregnant...she will throw me a kenduri (sarcastic way) and her child definitely will be big by the time i got pregnant.....
So you tell me.....is this what a best friend should behave...

I don't expect her to be perfect because i myself is not perfect...but i am loyal and wishes good things for the people i love...

Even people who are almost strangers to me even wished me well and prayed for me that hopefully god will bless me children one day.....see how other people can sympathise me better than my own friend...

I was quiet when she said that...because there's nothing i said that can ease the pain in my heart ...the hurtful words she said to my face.... the words that she can't take back..

Masa tu, aku berdoa kepada Allah semoga dia memberi ku hikmah di sebalik kesabaran ku ini...i am thankful that Allah gave me a handsome boy and a beautiful girl....Syukur alhamdullilah...

That day..i lost faith in best friend because i haven't found one(a real one)....but if i were to find one ...i will definitely grab and hold on to it..because i believe everybody needs friends at least if not best friend...