Sick again..

I just done painting the door without dh around....told him jokingly but serious (mcmana tu??haha) that if next year he did not finished painting by fasting month...i won't make raya cookies...just buy them from stores....because there's only so much i can do...he said ok ok, he promised that he'll do better next time....(aik nak kena blackmail baru tahu takut...lol...)


Aliah is having fever again ...these past weeks, they have been sick like nobody business....At first it was aliah ..then when aliah got better, aniq fall sick soon after that....now aniq just got better 2 days ago...aliah is having fever now...so i'm really really super tired .....i'm start to wonder whether the aircon in their classroom is the culprit?

Made biskut suji yesterday in from 9pm till 12am...excluding the washing of utensils...Thought of visiting my friend's mother in nursing hospital today when the kids were in school but it was raining quite heavily in the afternoon..not to mention the body ache that i has now so i cancelled my intention. Ya allah, aku seperti mengejar masa selalu...dlm kesibukan, janganlah engkau biarkan aku melupakan dirimu maka aku memohon supaya engkau kuatkan lah iman ku...amin amin amin ya rabbal alamin.

This weekend, i was hoping to paint the walls and make nestum cookies...this will be the first time i make them ...hopefully they turned out fine...insyaallah...

Aniq and Aliah fasting on weekend too!

We went to geylang yesterday for berbuka and just to browse around. I dunno why but i dont feel the 'heat' for hari raya yet or maybe it's still too early...but still there were a lot of people in Geylang yesterday already starting shopping. We went to Joo Chiat coffee shop and it was crawling with hungry people that were no tables vaccant and we were there before 6.30pm and Maghrib was 7.16pm! So next time we need to book table at least 6-6.15pm....

We approached one couple who were sitting on a big table and we thought of sharing ....luckily they weren't reserved other empty seats for someone else so we bunk in with them. For me ..i dont mind eating at the road side just eating burger or banana fritters but i sympathised aniq and aliah who were fasting as well and they look real tired even though their mouths still chattering non-stop.

Had a fulfilling meal at break fast...just simple meals like chicken rice, char kuay teow and banana fritters....for me, in ramadhan ...i love love love kuih muihs at berbuka..

But lately i feel like having Badak berendam....and feel like making my own because at least i know it would be nice...hehe

I'm sure that he won't read this ......

Dear Diary,

I'm gonna be broke!! Yikes......
For my hubby's birthday, i promised him to treat him and the children dinner and i let him choose any place he wish to dine....so he chose Sakura Int'l buffet....yeah it's nothing special but he says he really like to try the one that's located behind Mosque Al-falah.

I suppose to receive my payment 2 weeks ago for my tailoring but so far no news yet ...wargghh..

Luckily i put aside some money before hand for the dinner treats but still i'm gonna be broke after that...lol..

I also got him a perfume by Beckham signature (50ml) and it's hiding in my closet..i really like the smell and it's been such a looooong time since he had a perfume...KEsian kan!! Even the last one that he had which is by Calvin Klein Truth was bought by me!! He always don't like to spend money on himself except for necessities. That is what i like about him...SIMPLE man with simple needs..

I really need to get a wrapping paper tomorrow morning while he's asleep . That's the only time i can get away. And one more thing....i get the kids to draw him birthday cards..i did help here and there but most of the works were done by them...BRAVO KIDDOS!! (i just realise there're so many exclamation marks in this post...i must be hyper even at 1.50am!!)

Trying new hijab style.

I scratched my itch and decided to try this new hijab style. I've been trying to get the inner scarf but it was sold out like hot cakes on fb, especially the black and grey. So i pm my school friend whom i called Adik(izan) and asked for more links and told her about my itchiness to change my style. She gave me the support and encouragement since she already worn this style.

So now....how do i feel about this style??.hhmmm.....i will wear it again and i think it's easier to take it off when i'm taking my wudhu at mosque since the inner scarf is round and flat not like the pointy one which i still wear till now but i'm still comfy with old style tudung. This style might suit me better when i lose the 2kg that i gained since the last month which will result less chubby cheeks because i find it emphasis on my round face. I asked hubby and he said that he's okay with this and my old style...Haaiyaa...GUYS...it's hard to ask for their opinions....

I'm tired....

It feels like a lifetime that i haven't updated anything in my blog. Things have gone super crazy busy this month. I and my SAHM friend agreed that we can't wait for the school to reopen to shoo the kids back there...hahaha(super evil laugh). And did i mention that she got a maid to help her...so what about me who has to do everything ...EVERYTHING!! Truth to be told...i'm tired physically and mentally with their toys, books and colouring pencils laying around the house everyday and their non stop want this and want that list....get what i mean??

Anyway...i will updated some other stuff soon....or maybe i will resume blogging next week when the school reopens...hhmm...

Got a new Hp.

Took this picture using my new Hp Sony Erricson W995 camera (8.1 mp) and i love the quality of this picture.That means i don't need to bring my camera all the time with me. Yeah!!Dh asked whether i wanted iphone more than twice and i answered No because i rarely went out and i have my beloved pc at home but if i'm working, definitely i will get iphone for sure because it is really a GREAT HP!!

We paid less for both HP because we got $160 vouchers($80 for each HP) from Singtel to redeem.

After we bought it, we went to ION for coffee at CoffeeBean and we get Rosemary Roast Chicken with a bread of our choice which is Baguette with side salad for 8.50. I've been meaning to try it months ago since i saw the Halal logo stated on the menu. Hubby also promised to bring me to Fish Manhattan Restaurant end of this month. So yeah yeah....

As for my sewing project/business...i have sewed two of out three because the third one, i had insufficient material given by customer and i forgot to ask for their phone number so i need to wait till the school re-opens before i get to meet her and discuss about her daughter's kebaya as i got other alternatives to make it work and need to discuss with her.For now, i'm making my kebaya and Aliah's. I sketched the simple design kebaya with bell sleeve and cekak musang as my neckline on sketch book and showed it to Aliah and she love it!! My konon konon little customer......hahaha

OK that's it for now...got to go back to work and i'm now already starting to payback my fasting days ...well 5 days to go....

I'll wait for now.

I don't know why all i can think about these days is to go back working...i'm talking about just getting a job not a career...cause i don't really care a hoot about that.
But i need to get realistic about it ...Dh don't like having maid, mum stay a bit far from us, can't bear to put the kids in the child care centre especially they already used to the comfort of own home all these while and i can't afford help since i dont think i'll be earning that much. And the most important thing of all is that ...in my personal opinion...the kids are so much fun to spend the day with...and i wouldn't miss it for the world.

So i did a mental planning for myself....I'll think i'll wait for at least 5 yrs from now when the kids will be 10 yrs old and i'll start on part time job so that i still have the best of both worlds. But for now, i hope to enjoy every moment with my family..creating many many beautiful memories...

It's simply about the choice that we make.

A friend asked me this today, " Linda...kalau yor hubby found someone new and wanted to leave you, what would you do?" And i say, "hhmm....kalau dia berselingkuh dgn org lain dan sampai tak hiraukan allah, our marriage and the kids, i would let him go and be with that woman if that makes him happy, tak rela aku kalau dia berterusan melakukan dosa." And my friend said, " Huh dgn mudahnya kau mengalah?" And i said," Pada kau aku mengalah tapi pada aku...itu adalah kerugian suami aku.(doesn't mean to sound kerek, hehe) I will tell him that if he's willing to let go of me who love him like no other and always think of his interest first, who take care of the family, who at least try to cook delicious food when he's at home, who makes him feel that he is the head of family, who redha with his whatever final decision, who nurture his children, who never allowed him to wear crease clothing, who never fails to celebrate his birthday even in a small way, who treats his mother respectfully. I am not a materialistic woman....i never asked to be so rich, i never asked for a very big house or condo, i never asked for a car, i never asked for a maid but what i keep repeating like a broken record to my hubby is that i wanted to grow old together, go pasar and sarapan together, enjoying our 'senja' time together with love. I always trying to be a good wife, a good friend to him, a good mother and most importantly a good human being and most importantly insyaallah a good muslim. So in some way or another, i believe that i will get a good ending insyaallah even when he choose not to be with me . I believe in doing the right thing no matter what obstacles i may have. And that's my principle and my faith in Allah..and may Allah bestow his blessings on me. If he really can't see all that...then it will be his loss...or maybe it's just our fate and redha that allah has a better plan for all of us. My friend paused a short while and said, " Insyaallah laki kau tak buat mcm gitu....memang dia akan rugi kalau dia nak lepaskan kau (aww...so sweet).." I thanked her for saying that and prayed for my happiness but for now ..... let's just live in the moment where my hubby is the best husband, the best father and i'm thankful for that....Alhamdulliah. Leading a happy life is actually an easy task...it's simply about the choice that we make.

5 Random facts about me....

******** I cannot sleep without a blanket and 2 pillow (one for the head and one between my legs). That's why i have trouble sleeping at other people's home.

******** Always craves for Tahu Sumbat in fasting month.

********Unknowingly i sometimes speak like Yoda in Star Wars...that means i speak backwards. And it is cute and my speciality according to him (the hubby)...

********I loves spontaneous or being crazy once a while but i'm definitely not a risk taker....losing my father, my grandfather and my grandmother (all paternal side) at young age make me realise that life is too short and i don't like to gamble it away or be careless....

********I simply adore sour foods. I can suck lime juice literally out the lime fruit while watching TV..it's definitely extremely sour but it's EXCITING to me!

Got a new cooking hobs and a bed for Aliah.

Few days back, my cooking hobs(I've been calling it cooking stove till i knew that it was called hobs actually) somehow died on me and it has been leaking gas when i was ready to cook rasem with sambal kentang. So i was obliged to cook using my steamboat since all the ingredients has been sliced, prepared and grinded. Ad it took way too much time to cook all that using the steamboat set. But what you gonna do right?

So yesterday Dh finally got the time and brought me to Courts to get a new one. And i finally got the one with glass/ceramics top with 3 burners ...the one that i always wanted to have....Thank you hubby..YOU ARE THE BEST!! hehehe
I remember that my mother wanted something like that too...but looks like I'm getting it first! So this is a blessing in disguise for me that my old hobs got spoiled and because of that i got the one that i like...ok wait a minute..i just received a flashback about this advertisement about a lady purposely broke her washing machine with a skateboard just to have her husband to get her a new one....lol...except that I'm not that evil and mercenary.

So we picked up a new bed for Aliah as well since she doesn't have one yet...just a simple black in colour. They will deliver all the stuffs tomorrow from 11am to 3pm and will installed it for us too.
The kids will be on their educational trip to Fort Canning to learn about spices and will show them the uses for these spices especially in our traditional kuihs. I will send them off at their school at 8am and they will be back at 2pm. In the afternoon, we will be visiting my MIL at her new food stall at Tekah near the market to show her some support. I hope she's doing well with her food business ....So tommorow, it will be a busy busy busy day for us.

It's here at LAST! Phew....

My menses is finally here..today! I've been late for more than a week and even though my guts been telling me that i'm not pregnant but i was worried a wee bit that i could be wrong. Because i prefer to detect pregnancy in early stage so that i can get my body ready for it and relax. Let's just say that i'm still bumped over my miscarriage( 2nd pregnancy) and i blame myself a little for not listening to my body at that time...

The reason as to why i was late is all my own's doing.....i started back on eating yasmin pills (contraceptive pills) last month on the second day of my menses for less than a fortnight before i call it a quit. Why? Because i found that yasmin pills didn't suit me anymore...my heart races till i'm always restless, felt tired all the time and many more and i wondered why that didn't happened to me before the first time i tried the yasmin pills. Well...i decided not to take that anymore....ever ever again.

As happy as i am to have my period today...i feel very weak and the cramp is so ....arrrgghhh.....PAINFUL!! Can't cook today, can't stand up for so long....makan maggie ler jawabnya. Hubby is working 2 shift today so he is spared from my moody behaviour ...So sorry kiddos...i need to drag you both down....eating instant noodles with me...lol....

Majlis Khatam Al-quran

My first attempt making Pulut Kuning..Topped it with egg omelette.

Rendang Ayam on the peak of everything. I made 30 packets of this and luckily Dh was around last Friday to help me carrying all the stuff.oh boy..it was so heavy..

The majlis was a joyous one with 20+ people including my mum around to witness and i tried to keep myself steady because i'm a person who will get nervous easily with so many people focusing on me...haha
But alhamdullilah everything went smoothly and on the same day i received news that kamisah had given birth to a healthy baby boy (3.09kg)..A good beroqah day for all.

My plan for our family trip.

i feel that it has been ages since i last blog...well, it does feels like that way for me...
Dh was in afternoon shift today so i have the whole day almost to myself as long i get the kids fed, clean and their homework done..i can get the rest of the time to myself...at least i tried to.

Just to let you all know that i'm a LITTLE organise freek because i like to plan properly before i do anything....
First of all, i've already made my own notes in my organiser book about the place/shopping/night market places that i'm intend to visit and also about halal dining places because i don't like to waste time researching only when i'm there....
I even checked the Bangkok's weather because i need to know whether i need to bring umbrella or not and so far the weather prediction is between 34c to 23c (scattered clouds-stated in the website which maybe in my interpretation, it means partly cloudy, i guess)..anyway i'm glad that the weather prediction seems lovely...not too hot...not too cold just the way i like it but of course this is just the prediction...sesungguh Allah yg menentu segalanya..

I only bring 1 jeans (excluding the pants i'll be wearing that day) and only 2 tops because i'll be buying clothes so i rather save spaces for other stuffs..ahakz...just talking about it already made my heart racing and excited .....

This is my plan of my 4days/3nights bangkok trip

Day1 (Friday)
will be visiting Platinum Fashion Mall, Pratunam complex, Central World, Pantip plaza, Gaysorn Plaza..

Day2(Saturday)
Chatuchak market, mbk, Siam paragon/Centre/Discovery
(might try to visit the Siam Ocean world)

Day3 (Sunday)
Dreamworld
Hope that we won't be running out of cash by the Day 3...lol

Day 4 (monday)
will be doing a last minute shopping if needed before heading to Airport...

This is what i've planned (hubby shake legs only huh...)hehehe...Having a plan is like winning half the battle...

Ps: Tomorrow we will be doing mini shopping and exchanged currency for the trip and Dh promised to bring me to Secret recipe tomorrow for lunch to indulge on my favourite cakes...cheesecake and chocolate indulgence. Yipeee!!!!

We all have good legs to walk.

Last week, as usual we bought Bandung drink to be shared by 4 of us while walking our way home from Mrt. So while walking, Aniq asked his father this, " Ayah, ada money...beli Car!"
Then his Ayah told him, " Car.... ayah takde...tapi Carki (kaki) ada...now JLN!! hahaha.........

Having a car of course will be so much convenient but i love love love walking.....maybe i like to count that as part of my exercise and healthy lifestyle since i don't jog now.....Dh always wanted to get a car but i am a little reserved about that because i rather have more money on hand to enjoy since our flat is not that far from MRT....Well, that's just my thoughts for now.....

What makes me simmers?

When i got mad/stress/ or depressed, i would try to cope by ............

1) taking wudhu and solat

2) just randomly choose a new recipe and starts cooking or baking

3) watching my favourite movie or rent a new movie

4) solving sudoku (this really works especially when i kept picturing a 'hated' person in my mind and focusing on numbers really diverts that)

5) eating either chocolate(my no.1 comfort food) or potato chips and it instantly makes me feel better.

6) buy any new magazine to read.

7) window shopping or buy something that makes me happy (no need to be expensive stuff)

8) blogging about my feelings and if i feel bad about it...i would erase it the next day but after pouring it out once, i felt better. Or even better, write about in my private diary.

9) trying to stay positive and remember everything happens for a reason and remind myself that i'm not the only person having problems.

10) even if i'm powerless to change the situation, i'll remind myself that i'm responsible of my reaction on how to respond to it.

Easier said than done? Then you can go ahead run like a mad woman, screaming and kicking till someone calls the police......lol.....
After we all just human, rite....hahahaha (just kidding).

Finally.

Yesterday was the day...like finally...Guess what? I had khatam Al-Quran for the first time at the age of 31...well, serve me right for always ponteng my religious class when i was young...(jahil mah). But don't worry, i will not feel embarassed by it...infact i'm glad that i learnt ngaji with my guru ngaji because she taught me tajwid as well which i did not learn or know about it when i was young.

Yesterday i called my mother and hubby and shared my good news....and of course they feel happy about it and ucap Alhamdullilah. I remembered i was 22 or 23 when i decided to relearn everything from Iqra'...so from a single to being married and to being a mother never stop me to keep on going even though i can't attend class that often cause i always got never-ending list to do. But alhamdullilah that i never forget or stop...and my hubby always known me for my determination...hehe Once i set my mind on something...i will definitely do it even in a slower pace.

I hope to continue reading Al-quran till i gave my last breath and i thought of attending a ceramah or class on tafsir-tafsir Al-Quran because it is very important and wajib to know the meaning of every surah. In fact i already bought Tafsiran Al-quran books years ago for easy access. Skali lagi, aku bersyukur kpd mu ya Allah dan semoga kami dibimbing ke jln mu sentiasa dan tidak jemu membaca ayat-ayat sucimu. Amin.

No peace for 10 mins.

I applied my St Ives clay mask this morning after washing my face and hoping to get my 10 mins rest without talking while the mask dried up. And of course, i gave my kids their milk so i was hoping they would drink their milk quietly while i was having my 'zen' moment.

While i was laying down at my sofa watching them taking their milk....aniq wouldn't stop talking..
He keep asking me whether he can watch his favourite cartoon movie 'CARS' after school today and i said ...mmmm (which means yes...cause I'm not suppose to talk while putting a mask).
He didn't get it and he asked me again. So i broke the rule and answered him YES and i thought he will stop talking and will drink his milk quietly. And he kept talking this and that, asking me this and that...and i was struggling with my own mask, battling with myself.....and i GAVE UP!! I washed my face and realised i have to become a mother first before myself...or did i choose a wrong timing to put on my mask?? lol...

Well it's ok...maybe i'll do my mask at night then....moral of the story is to plan well....or your mask will crack.hahaha....

Resolution for 2010

ok.let's talk resolution again for 2010...My resolution for 2009 is to eat more vegetables and i did that alright. So mission accomplished.

So for 2010, i hope to become more God-fearing person to be a better muslim and in the same time so that i can guide my two little angels to the path that i wish for them.
And another one is to drink more plain water as i keep having dry skin around my nails...gross and irritating.

I love having resolution because i feels it opens a new chapter in my life. It's like i'm being reborn every year....

Just say whatever i want to say

Right now, i'm dipping my oreos in my hot coffee for lunch...i know that doesn't sound healthy but i am feeling sad right now and i just want to indulge something sweet to replace my bitterness.

Words have been said that cannot be taken back...and once again i feel unwanted.
Though it was a honest answer, still i don't know how am i suppose to react to THAT!

Lets move on to something else....
We already bought the kids water bottle for school that will start soon and Aliah and Aniq finally got their dream water bottle..it was a princess-ish like for Aliah and a CARS bottle for Aniq (duh). Each retail for $11 each and i'll make sure that they will take good care of it...cause it is so expensive for a water bottle in my opinion...gosh..i hope i don't spoil them bad...
We also have bought their new school shoes at Kiddy Palace since the old ones were already so small for their constantly growing feet. I always can't get over how my darlings have grown so fast.


And let's move on to something else again....
This morning i wore a big smile on my face...i dreamt about me and my family went on a holiday at Indonesia ...weirdly i can't remember where is it exactly ...whether it's Bali or Bandung or Jakarta but we were having a darn good time and the best part was after we came back to Singapore, we were packing again for another holiday to Bangkok, like i originally planned.
Wow...it's like we were always on the move having fun all the time....hahaha

Hotel room has been booked.

I did not book hotel through Air Asia because the hotels they offerred were limited and Baiyoke Sky is not on their list. I thought i would book Asia Hotel in Bangkok that linked to their BTS skytrain which should be convenient for us but i heard lots of spooky stories about that hotel..

I wonder is it because the hotel is old already, that is why it gave out spooky feelings or is it really 'unclean'? When i heard the hotel is old and dim, it already turn me off whether it 'clean' or 'unclean'. I called few friends who ever stayed there and said so far nothing weird had happened to them..one of them even jokingly said that after a day of shopping like crazy, she dozed off so quickly that she don't have time to think about all that..hahahaha

Anyway, i already booked Baiyoke Sky Hotel (rated 3.5-4 star) which recommended by hubby's colleague and i did it through www.asiarooms.com ( a website also recommended by same person) and the process of booking hotel room was so freaking easy. I would definitely use this website again whenever i travel, for sure.

The best part that i just have to book the room by giving credit card details but they won't deduct the amount just yet till we check out from the room. And there will be no hidden charges to the price they quote us on the website. Cool!!

So of course, i went ahead and do it online and the hotel's price was around $88++ and total amount for 3 nights are $266.01.
I know there are more hotels with lower prices but for the kids sake, i wanted somewhere nice, comfortable and convenient and i heard many halal restaurants are around Baiyoke Sky hotel area.

How i wish i had a laptop to bring so that i can do a blog post per day when I'm there but i guess not.........I think I'll just jot down details about it in my diary which by the way i have not buy for 2010....Clock is ticking Tik Tok Tik Tok...HHmmm....